Best guide is God

It’s hard to find,

The positive side.

Going through life’s trials,

Leads to doubt and denials.

But there’s One who can guide you,

Passed bad to good all the way through.

The most painful times can be,

The best if you see.

He will guide you through too,

Afterwards you’ll feel like new.

The small things taken for granted,

Are now the best things ever handed.

See the positive and have faith,

You’ll make it through and feel saved.

You really are the best guide,

One money cannot buy. 🙏

Who could unite

I hear the question a lot lately, what can bring us back together?

It’s not so much as a “what” as it is a who…

Trust is gone from any “what”, all systems have been uncovered for what they are.

All constructs have been shown to be built on lies, corruption, and agendas.

Can’t trust anyone or anything of this earth.

Government, courts, medical, news, and even church.

All built with agendas and first thing to do so you can make sense of it is remove God.

Without God there is no right or wrong, just how this world is now.

If everyone is right then every house is it’s own nation.

But humans are nothing, we are weak, we are stupid, just meat puppets running around this planet.

The second we are start thinking we are better then the creator, we weaken.

Once we start taking glory for what we do, and look to gain power, we weaken

I won’t take sides on anything because the only one I debate with is Him.

Stand for something or fall for anything…

I stand for good, pure spirit that doesn’t have agendas because those are selfish…

Realize this… it’s not about you…

Right or wrong is not yours…

Judgement is not yours…

Vengeance is not yours…

Someone else’s life is not yours…

Simple rules equal simple life, treat others how you would want to be treated…

Bless others and you will be blessed…

Want to make the world a better place? Start with your neighbor and work outward

When I get asked the question “what can bring this world back together?”

My answer is God.

No Regerts

What if?

Only if….

I shoulda, coulda, woulda

Wonder and curiosity is good,

If it looks to the future.

Questioning the past is good,

If it leads to a deeper understanding.

Acceptance of what was,

Makes it better for what can be.

The past can’t be changed,

But your path can be more than the same.

Can’t regret the past,

Fulfill your future.

Phelps state of mind

On the drive to Bolton I’m stuck in my feels,

Checking the weather like that’s even real.

It never rains on Phelps Island,

Not in my mind.

As the miles diminishes,

My excitement increases.

The boats are loaded with what we need,

Chicken, beer, shorts, and weed.

We cruise across the lake with incredible speed,

It’s the last time we rush for better part of a week.

The rock face of Phelps start coming in focus,

It looks like Everest if by some hocus pocus.

As soon as i step a ground,

My spirit goes abound.

Time froze the hands on the clock,

For all I know my body never left the dock.

From that point on I felt nothing but pure,

Love and happiness made other feelings obscure.

We can’t get hurt here,

We feel no fear.

Nothing can happen to anyone around,

Can’t fall when you’re not on the ground.

You can fly through the air in a single dash,

And come back and cause a monstrous splash.

Everything happens right on time,

I need a beer- here take mine.

Spirits mingling and skins tingling,

We laugh and cry only results from feeling.

I can’t explain everything that occurred,

The entire trip is blurred.

That blur molds into trips of future and past,

Did that happen 2 years ago or the last.

Few years recorded,

But every year known.

I watch one and I see all times and clans.

So When the world tries to makes me frown,

I just close my eyes and there I am

55 feet above the water and upside down.

Weightlessness

We all float down here:

Let go of the weight of the world.

All the worries and the fears.

Gravity is a negative force.

But it can’t hold down nothing.

If you let go of the material.

There’s nothing for it to press on.

Walk down your path.

Better yet float down it.

When your direction comes from above.

You will float down here.

Can’t control Fate

I know what I’m doing

No you don’t.

You don’t have control,

No matter what you choose.

Every choice has been made,

What you’re going to do has been done.

You just either accept it,

Or you deviate.

But eventually it’ll lead back,

To your original track.

Your path has been paved,

Time to accept you’ve been saved. 🙏

Where are the answers?

Nothing makes sense,

I can’t believe what I see.

I hear things and I can’t believe,

I search for Why to no relief.

Answers to my questions can’t be found,

Not while I’m here on the ground.

I do things to elevate,

Most people can’t relate.

I thought I was in control,

Just searching for the answers of my soul.

Not all means justify the end,

Sometimes just need a friend.

But can anyone hear me,

I’m right in front but they can’t see.

What I’m really going thru,

Maybe I’m hidden it’s true.

“I don’t do anything for present experience,

Just for the future story.”

Used to live by that,

Now I’m disgusted by it.

Don’t matter what happens now,

As long as there’s a story to tell.

Even when I thought I was doing right,

I wasn’t even right about that.

It’s different now and I can see,

The answers I found in the above sea.

This is for me and only me,

Pray your paths leads to the answers you seek.

End of summer

This was it,

The last good week of summer and also the attempt to return to normal.

Gyms are opening up and the end of the quarantine line is nearing,

Time to go out with a bang,

Full week of activities ahead.

Tuesday golf with the attorney,

Wednesday is Island day to get ready for-

Thursday Delaware Debauchery 5.

Friday BBQ for mom before she goes back to Florida, and Saturday family day.

So let’s start on Sunday and is Doubleday,

7am to 11pm 16 hrs of pure correctional bliss,

And it goes as planned intake desk morning and inside work at night, total hours working 🤔 3?

Monday-lets get most ready for debauchery so Jell-O shots scooped into cups and watermelon filled with liquid happiness. Work Monday night -f-wing total time working-15 mins. Get out and now it’s time to start the activities.

Question:

Do I go straight home? I have to be up early to drive to long island for golf.

Answer: Nope, let’s go out for some beers and start it up. If I’m tired I’ll figure out a way to wake up.

Smoke a couple beers and shots head home after 45 mins. Home by 1.

Wake up at 5:30 got dressed and packed up for golf, helped the fam get out the door and off I go, barreling to Long Island.

Main concern: I have to drive home, can’t get too drunk, same way to keep me up also keeps me focused.

Drink water en route, beers on the course, and transfusions with dinner.

Great round now enjoying drinks, food, and convos at dinner.

Around 3 I start feeling a little drunk and a little more tired,

Time take a shot of energy. BANG

Back in the game and feeling right.

Crush few more transfusions and now ready to drive home.

A friend drank less than me but in worse shape,

Decides quantity over quality and thinks he’s better to drive, No thanks bro I got this…

He couldn’t even operate a cell phone.

One hiccup, intersections in Yonkers come out of nowhere,

Dodged it and moving on.

The night is lengthened with every shot of energy I inhale.

Talking with “Phone operator” enlightened another person.

Wednesday just became recovery day and get ready for the mighty Delaware.

Had a meeting with the sheriff but I’m hurting from prior night festivities.

Gotta do it tho it’s the right thing so picked myself up by my dress shoe strings and dragged me ass down there.

Did my unionly duty and headed home to spend time with the family and recoup for the trip.

Thursday: it’s Gametime, wake up My boy be here soon and bringing goods for the day, today is going to be great but it can be better!!… but nobody ever on time.

Get showered and ready, cut up the watermelons and bagged it.

Everything in coolers and ready to go.

My friend finally showed up an hour late he asks “we starting now?”

Ummmmm YEP

People bailing left and right in the trip but

Eyes down head forward continue with the day…..

Eventually all 12 debauchians show up and we are ready to go, rafts paid for don’t worry now worry about money later..

Debauchery goes over like always and great time it was….

Everyone makes their way home and happy they made the trip, alls well that ends well….🤟

Friday: smoking day making beef ribs for mom and Eric,

Not going all out but making the main attractions: smoked meat and corn casserole…

Started the day and got to work, ribs on at 8 and went to the store,

Picked up refreshments for the day, awestruck hibiscus ginger apple cider, magners pear cider, bud lights, and acid stogies….

Made my way thru the day enjoying music, smoking meats, beers, and stogies…

spent some time chatting it up with my boys L and Rock, yea we were elevated 😇

Eventual sat down and journeyed thru “American gangster” awesome movie about a cop that hates corrupt cops and a gangsta that hates disloyal criminals….

And here I am now,

In-laws house for beers with my father in law, Mich ultras and great convo….

I’m going to indulge myself again and make tomorrow’s 16 hrs in jail that much harder,

Why not? It’s the end of summer and return to normal…. Summer 2020 🤟

Dream life

My dreams have come true,

They no longer tell me what to do.

I can fly,

I can be free.

I tell my dreams,

They don’t tell me.

I walk without fear,

I no longer fear Freddy.

My dream can be whatever I deserve,

As long as I continue to observe.

That my dreams continue to be,

Good for everyone least of all…Me